Sunday, January 10, 2010

New Years Resolutions

I have never been one to make new years resolutions, mainly because I know I am never one to keep them.  But I have been thinking an awful lot lately about what little things I can do to better myself, my family, our finances, our home etc.  I have decided this would be my year to CREATE!  I need to use my mind and my talents and not use money to create things.  Beautiful things, easy things, anything.  Things that usually I would spend money.  So imagine my surprise when I rolled upon a blog called
http://kari-youcanmakeit.blogspot.com/.  hahaha.  Is this a sign from the universe or what??  So any good ideas, not too tacky, pretty modern, easy (I am a beginner!) things to create let me know!!  (And any gardening advice for a woman who has killed every plant she has ever had would be nice too.  Thats my other project)

Friday, January 8, 2010

Hug them a little tighter tonight!

Today has been such a blah, twilight zone kind of day.  And yet it has been so wonderful.  My heart has been aching since I learned this morning that baby Gavin passed away.  I have felt so numb, quite exhausted emotionally, and yet so grateful.  Gavins mom has a way of writing that is so deep, so real, and I have literally felt her pain from one mommy heart to another.  I cannot pretend that my faith would match hers and I have been so touched by her testimony of Christ and eternal families. 
It ended up being a day for me of reflection.  Not anything I planned or any time set aside for reflecting, but more of just a peace and comfort while doing homework, and during bathtime, and even when Shalye diarrhead all over the floor.  I just could not tell my kids enough how much I loved them.  I was smothering them I am sure!  I was just so happy to be able to have them, and hold them, and tell them I love them.  And then my heart would ache again.  Deeply.  For Natalie.  It pained me to know that she would not be able to do the same with Gavin.  For now.  I pray for peace to her broken soul.
I am so grateful for the blessings I have in my life, especially the little ones that cause me to lose my temper way too often.  Tonight I was just feeling blessed and soaking up every little minute.  So tonight everyone, slow down, hug your little ones and tell them you love them a million times.  And even your big ones too!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Pray for baby Gavin

As I am writing this I am bawling my eyes out.  I am not crying just cause I am desperately sad and scared.  I am crying because I cannot imagine as a mom watching your little baby go through so much pain.  But I believe more than that, I am also crying because of the testimony and faith of this beautiful family.  Nothing has touched my spirit so deeply in a while. Although I do not know them well, I have always admired them.  They are kind to everyone, they are humble, the are so funny, and they need a miracle......and lots and lots of prayers!  So please pray for this baby and this family.  http://www.natalienortonphoto.com/